Wednesday, September 30, 2009

What is Beauty?

What is beauty?

Is beauty in the inside?

Is beauty only on the outside or both?

I know the true answer. I know it's both. But, how do you know if you have both?

I hope that I'll understand those questions in a new, more indepth answer. This is my finally post for today!!

This Wonderful Life

I've been doing a lot of reflecting on my past, present and future.

You know how you look back, and understand life and it's hardships so much better after you've gone through them? I'm sure in that stage in my life right now. Looking back and understanding the pain and joy's that I've gone through. You wonder if any pain is wroth experiencing. You wonder if all the tears are wroth the effort to cry about. Now, today if you would ask me that question. I would say definitely! I'm not the person I am today if it weren't for pain, heart ache and being torn to pieces over and over again. Life is way to short to grieve or a long period of time. Through almost any pain, there is joy to be found. It's a choice to sit back and take life by what it comes to you. People can only hurt you has much has you let them. Events can affect you by only what you determine them to become.

If you read my previous'll see that every turn and every person has it's reason to live. I'm still discovering mine. Hence, the name of this blog!! It takes time to change. Every day we should be rediscovering who we are to others and ourselves.

Monday, September 28, 2009

New Beginnings Again!!

It's been awhile since I've last written a post. A lot has happened for me since then.

I have my very 1st boyfriend!! His name is Drew. We have been dating for a month and a half. I've fallen in love with him very quickly. I keep telling myself to slow down!! To guard my heart. But, I just seem to do that. I feel safe with him. I feel that I can relax and be myself. When I'm with him..It's like I'm by myself except that I'm with him. U see I can only be myself when I'm alone. I hope that makes sense to who ever if any one reads my blogs. I'm more myself than anyone I've ever spent time with!

I have a growing interest in some new topics. I'm re-falling in love with computers, technology, PC and video games, and the card game magic: The Gathering. I'm becoming a nerd all over again. Since talking my medication for a year now. I'm finding that I'm becoming alive again!!
My world is becoming open and filled with adventure and life!!

I'm on top of the world. I will never ever say I'm doing good. I'm going to say, I'm doing marvelous or I'm doing fantastic! I believe that asking how people are doing is a good opening sentence in communication with others. Most people don't really tell how there doing. The question is so superficial! I do it all the time! Yet, I despise it!! I truly want to know how people are doing. This life isn't a walk in a park. We all need people to care about us. Show concern about us. I also hate our english language. It is superficial communication. We talk and walk...but do we ever ever stop and take time to show true honest concern for others.